i want to talk to you all day even if we talk about absolutely nothing.


feeling a bit manic today or something. i think there is something wrong with me. i cant work. ia m taking so long to get the smallest fucking thing done. i had to run outside a few hours ago and bounce in the snow and kick it in the sun light to make myself feel better. i cant be inside right now. uughggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

we have OT tonight too. i dont want to stay but i do every time. oh well. something magnanimous is bothering me underneath it all, in my soul. abrasive , tearing, gah. i feel slightly angry today for no apparent reason. i feel like i want to run away and be alone for 400 days and not talk to one human person.

only ones who are completely honest... maybe just ONE person.
open sheer honesty. god. im feeling just too human today
too much like an animal.